Decisions Decisions and I gotta make one fast

How many times have we noticed us saying that phrase. If you were me, you would probably be repeating that phrase once, if not more, every hour. It is just that life is full of so many junctures, that you hit a fork every time you blink your eyes. These decisions span every aspect of your life, and if I am to be believed, even dictate on the kind of person you may be. For instance, if you are a person who likes to have a routine, then maybe you will not be making many decisions. You will know what you will be doing next. However, for people like me, who don’t know what is going to hit them the next second, these decisions are a plenty. Consider a usual morning cycle. After I get up, should I brush my teeth first or check my Email, there may be an important message. Should I have breakfast first, or should I take a shower. Should I have milk or just juice. Should I bike to school, or should I take the bus. Should I sit in the lobby or should I sit in the library or in the lab perhaps. Should I eat out, or should I eat at home. Should I go home early or late. Should I sleep early or late. These are but a few questions, however mediocre, that come to me each and every day. The way I answer them, depends on how I am that day. Say I am broke. In that case I will obviously want to come home and eat. This is in stark contrast to when I was home. I knew I had to go to class, in the morning, but I had the servants make me breakfast. What I would eat would depend on what the cook thought would be good for me that day. All I had to decide was should I go late to college or not. It may sound strange, but now that I am staying alone, it does seem to be a big deal. Back then, I knew I could think or study for some stupid test in the morning, not having to care a lot about what I was eating or anything. However, now I cant. I need to make sure I am the one cooking what I am eating based on what is there and what is not. Some people find it easy, some find it difficult, and then there are some like me, who don’t really care. I mean I do think about my breakfast, but not that much. If I am late, I eat out. Now consider this. If such stupid or mediocre decisions, can make me sweat, think about what would happen with them big ones. The ones big enough to decide your future. In the past I made one such decision and now I am regretting it. I had decided to take up a certain program, and I did take it up. Now its really haunting me. I have lost all motivation to do it anymore. I would even go as far as saying that maybe when I made my decision, I made it too fast and without thinking a lot. Now there is no way out and I am kinda stuck with it. If I could undo that decision, I would do it in a heart beat. The key, I think, to making decisions, is that you need to think not about the present but how will it affect you in the future, not only if it succeeds, but even if you make the decision and it fails. It sounds all to simple, but many times the parameters are far too many and far too complex to actually determine what the outcome will be. All you can do is then guess, and how good this guess is, depends on how experienced you are in making such decisions. I know I am not a lot experienced, else I would have seen this coming a long way out. Many times, you don’t even have to time to make the decision, rather calculate your decision. That’s when you say “Decisions Decisions… and I gotta make one fast”. Well all I hope is that the next time I make such decisions, they be good ones.